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3:15 am
many things has changed ever since i have started working at levis for 6 months, i started to pack my time with more things to do like after school go work at levis for 4 hours earning just a small amt. many pple has asked to me quit the job for just so little pay, but i still stay on n go on, they dun understand, which i think working makes my life better rather than school, home, church... every week i have been doing this kind of routine tats makes me really sick n tired of it. so y not go n work n make new friends? i dun wan always sticking to e same old grp of frenz whereby they makes u really pissed up wif them...
seriously, i was just hoping this blog can be a little wall whereby no ones passes this wall n read wat i write, n this little corner of my tat i can write anything! anything tat i feel dun nid to care abt wat others thinks abt me. i came to a conclusion tat although i am not a loner who do not have any frenz, but i am a loser who doesn't have any TRUE frenz... tats really poor thing.. i started thinking of e pple arnd me, none of my frenz i can say they r my true friend, really... coz they may know me for beri long time or short time, either way they do not understand abt me, n they dun really know me, i haven really find some1 tat i can really tell them what i feel... either they have no time for me, they cannot be trusted or they are just backstabbers.
coming to think of that, u nv know who is the ones tat put on mask infront of u, n at ur back keeping on backstabbing u, n i dunno how to deal wif it... shld i put on another mask n act as if everything is ok, or shld i be caution to all of them. of coz i dunno who are those people tat belongs to this group and i dun wan to know either which makes me dunno how to deal wif it. as for the 2nd group of people, seriously some i really cannot trust them with my feelings n stuff, coz they wont understand, as i said, i can only put on a smile n be happy whenever i am wif them... n lastly, many of my close frenz belongs to this group, coz they dun have the time, they have their life, who got e time to even bother abt u? which makes me rather sad, i can only stare at the ceiling at nite n tell all the problems to myself... which makes me a real loser... but i dun blame them, they have their problems, they have their own life, y shld i keep on bothering them wif my problems n stufF? all i can do is stare at the blank wall n "HaiZ".... n tell myself that "Thats life"....
i started to feel that i getting really far away from most of them, everytime only just a dinner or so when we get together, other than that, i will go on my own ways. i feel that if i get too close to them, arguements or misunderstandings will makes me feel even more unhappy wif them. maybe i shld just stand at the safe zone whereby not too near or too close to them....
To many friends out there.... i'm not angry or sad or disappointed with you all, may be thats the way to pick myself up when i fall down... i'm just happy just to be with you all... Thanks!...
12:11 am
09/01/07
its my 19th birthday, where i dun wish to celebrate it at all, many things happend a few days back where i hope people will forget abt this day n let it pass just like normal day... n also i dun wan to be 19... seems like i'm beri old, 18 is e best...
thank you every1 who have wished me happy birthday, thanks! really appreaciate it. especially 4e5, i mean altough e tat day wasn't any grant celebration or big party, but to me its just great, simple man like me likes simple gathering all tat will do, every1 just sit down n chit chat, really feel good, just like e old days. n seriously, ever since after sec skool, met many new frenz but 4e5 pple r e ones tat i really feel e real me, coz every1 is e same age as me, we tok abt same stuff... wat disappointing things is tat not all pple is there, which i felt half e class is there nia... but cant blame anyone, every1 has changed, they have their own life which cannot expect them to be with u all e time. i'm really happy on tat chalet, if every1 has time, we can have a longer chalet..
after tat chalet, my levis' colleagues wanted to celebrate b'day wif me too, so i went down after chalet, meet them up after they close shop, den we went bowling... hahaha nothing much though.. but i'm still very happy, this is e 1st bday where i really play like siao, go to school at 9am till 2 am e nxt day... at least pple do rmb my bday, being wif them is e best, much better than getting present... hahaha
a few days ago, i saw marcus fu on e road on one of e saturday evening, its not too difficult to identify him cause he is till wearing e same t-shirt n pants, but this time round he is wearing a cap. hahaha i saw his botak head, i mean really look like a monk lah wif his body size... hahaha, i asked him hows life in camp, he said relax sia.... just walking most of e time, also he said he is getting stronger liao... lolx, sooner more guys will be gg in liao, hope one day we can sit down n chat abt army life... thats wat i always heard from older guys out there, everytime meet up will tok abt army...
now my mood is not good at all, pissed up wif e school, wat a lousy school of IT, seriously how i wish this yr is e last semester. i just checked my school email, i got into (in-house attachment) whereby i was trying to apply industrial project for 2 times! n yet i got IHP(in house), i'm going to spent my 1 whole semester in school again doing some crap wif no pay at all while others can go outside n work at least earn abit of money. f*** sia, other poly or course got great projects n some r going to france, japan, far far away... but we school of IT only get to go china... its like wtf lah, suzhou industrial park there doing programming... that freaking no life, seriously. i really hate this course man, we learn nothing but plain shit... n wat i get was In-house projects. just feel like quiting this course n go n work outside... so wat if its a diploma? diploma in IT is plain shit... use it to clean ur backside lehz...
12:10 am
Warning, this post contains offensive language and may offend anyone who reads it.
women are just b****es... seriously, its not normal to see me write a post to scold some1 but this time i was really mad wif them... WOMEN! especially 25 n above women. I'm sorry if i have insulted u all, but i have reason for saying that... coz its been bothering me since Christmas until now.
1) women just like to mess things up
i mean we work in retails have to do folding of tops n bottoms, n we spent quite some time to fold all the tops, place them nicely n neatly on e shelves. this WOMAN is looking for tops for her bf or husband lah, she didn't take e display piece to choose, instead she take the ones on e shelves n look, not only tat... see liao den throw on e table n take the other, over all she look at 10+ pieces of tops n throw on e table which makes 1 whole pile of laundry like tat, n we are damm busy wif e sales n we have to re-fold them n place it back, if i'm not wrong... in e end she didn't even buy any of them... which makes me so mad! cant she just see there are displays hanging? n must take n see n throw...
2) women are just fussy...
today just came across this lady which i find her really is a bitch! she is looking for some jeans tat is 100% cotton n will not expand after washing a few times, my colleagues just explain to her tat all e jeans will definitely expand after wash, n she just dun believe him den my colleagues buay tahan liao, he went serve others, n she came n find me to help... at 1st i didn't know, but after serving liao, walan... i feel like slapping her sia, she dun believe wat i say n take some evidence to show me... fuck! if dun believe den dun buy, as if i wanted her sales like tat, n she expect me to check other stores whether got any jeans tat will not expand... e shop is busy, n we are lack of staff liao, n she expect me to serve her only? hey man... we are LEVIS, not Louis Vuitton, GUCCI which will spend e whole day serving u until u are satisfy. also she expect me to show her around the shop on which are the new arrival...
e other incident is when this lady customer, she tried this top which happens to be e last piece liao, den its on sales, she dun wan e display piece n ask whether other stores have it or not, den i tok her we will transfer it for her which will take an hr, she has no time to wait n want it to be reserved over there for her tml strictly NEW piece, n she just disturbing me when i was calling the other store to make reservation... com'on! its a sale items, n u wan new piece which we left wif only 1! u wan cheap n fresh (translate in dialect) n FAST! cant u see we are busy? cant u wait while? everything must serve u all 1st, as if u are buying few thousand dollars item... freaking fussy pple...
3) women just want to be treated like a princess
i didn't serve this woman, is my colleagues. she asked for something, of coz must wait rite? den my colleagues went to look for it, as u know our shop is abit big, find things wont be tat fast. n she shouted at my colleagues complaining why are we so slow!... AGAIN! we r not LV or GUCCI staff where we have e time to serve on u... n u are not buying something beri expensive, dun think u are a princess or superstar where every1 is serving u... cant u just wait n need u shout at us? just a piece of jeans n show this kind of fucking attitude... n she is wif her bf.. i pity e bf if really married her sia, this kind of fuck up attitude. so wat if she is pretty, whatever make up cant cover up her ugly attitude. fuck off wif ur little money....
4) women just dun buy!!!
i wonder how come ladies got the time n money to make SHOPPING AS THEIR HOBBIES.. because they dun BUY! they can try whole lot of jeans n tops, try this try that, come out let bf see whether nice or not, look at the mirror from different angle, size 24 try until 28, super low waist try until super super low waist. In the end, they just throw the whole pile at u, den u ask them "how is it?" they just give this answer" its ok..." its like WTF lah? try so many, we search high n low to all e jeans u want, den in e end u dun wan n just give an answer "No" w/o an reason why u dun wan, issit too big or too small, or color not nice... if she didn't buy becoz she didn't get wat she wants... I'm ok wif it... i accept tat becoz we cant satisfy her needs, BUT! wat the hell, she just for fun... purely spend my 30min serving her wif no sales at all, i rather serve other customer who really wanting to buy...
com'on maybe u all think tat its ok to try, no problem wif that... u try order bakchor mee, den when it comes, u just say "its ok... i dun wan liao" see if tat uncle will take e chopper n chop u... we earn mostly through commission, n we waste our effort serving u pple, u dun buy n we dun get any sales, end of e months we dun get much of commission... we rather concentrate on serving pple tat is buying rite? stop telling me this kind of bullshit tat nxt time they will be a potential customer... company cares but i dun care, who knows when u coming back n whether going other store to buy or not... its practical... u dun get sales, u no commission...
i mean if u dun wan to buy de, den dun try... for windows shopping den look all u want... when u are interested to buy... we can spend e whole day serving u until u gets wat u wanted... we are happy to serve u... i dunno why, but ladies just like to try ONLY!
5) women are fat bitch tat dun admit they are FAT!
i dun say 'fat' to any of the woman i know, even if i do... i only say tat as a joke... but now seriously these customer really makes me insult them FAT!... they are trying waist 28 liao which is the largest size of this kind of jeans... they wear n make this kind of comment "this jeans makes me look fat...." -.-||| walao... plz lor... they are designed in e way tat it will make woman wearing it to able to show their skinny legs, their round butt... that's why it is beri tight around your thighs and buttock. n they are already FAT, n say tat our jeans makes them look fat... sometimes i standing at e side, really want to tell them "is u fat lah.. plz lor, dun insult our jeans..."
i really pissed wif the above illustrated customer, these kind of nonsence i cannot tahan for quite a sometime... readers, if u are not tat kind of pple (thank GOD) plz dun get offended.... if u are one of them, plz realise tat CUSTOMERS IS NOT ALWAYS RIGHT! dun think tat u have some stinky money, u can act like a king or queen.
2:48 am
now is 1am, its christmas... well i just love christmas, x'mas is always different from other holidays, u can feel e festive mood. but to me, i feel there's something missing... well, wat else?
december updates, this month has been a better month den any other, coz 1stly i just came back from KL on thurday, well... a short 3d2n trip but i really enjoyed myself, though it shld have more pple going but in e end some put aeroplane on e last min. we did alot of shopping.. really alot! i have nv been shop this much in my life, for 3 days, most of our time is spend on shopping, not hunting but is surfing through e whole shopping malls, coz its cheap... i feel e money like nothing... lolx
but there's something which pissed me during e trip is tat the taxi over in KL, altough its cheaper than sg taxi but they see u r a tourist den they heck u like a vegetable head (cai tou)... and also e traffic there is horrible, just a short distance we can spend 30 min in cab coz the traffic lights r spoiled! dotz...
2ndly, ytd is our MINI 4e5 gathering, though we didn't get much pple coz its my last min idea, n with this short time we cant contact most of them. so those who didn't know abt it... i'm sorry.
although just a evening together, its been wonderful.. really, all those past memorise has been flowing back, as if we r still during sec4. for almost a yr not been seeing each other, or rather 2 yrs... we got so much crap to talk abt... it feel so good when i'm wif them, seriously. especially during e guys talk, we chat some much abt CARS n driving.. hahaha...
actually, i'm been thinking abt having an outing to overseas like some island where we can all relax n play together for a short trip, just now when we were playing water polo during e class chalet at aloha, but come to think of it... its hard to get pple to go overseas especially some guys r going to NS, n i dun think gals can go oversea alone... but it will be fun if we have that... so anybody interested? plz tell me, den if got a number of pple ok wif it den i can do e planning... hahaha.
lastly, altough its christmas, i still have to work... but i dun feel like its poor thing to work when others is having fun, coz to me every yr christmas has always been e same where u dun even know where to go n wat to do... so stay in shop n work is actually not a bad thing as there r ur colleagues to spend e day wif... but today i was rather angry over it in shop, all becoz of gift exchange... well i dun wan to tok abt it, or else it will spoil my post n also i will get angry over again... just cool down n dun think abt it... forgive n forget...
now is e last post of 2006 liao, another yr has been past. every time during e end of yr i will like reflect on wat have i achieve during this yr, n truthfully i think this yr is another meaningless year...
new year resolution " i dunno, i dun wan to think... coz in e end it is still meaningless...."
12:57 am
to my surprise that michelle heng reminded me to update my november post, which i myself also forgotten abt it. n also there are pple waiting for see my post every month, WOW! lolx.
many small but significance things happen this month, which i dunno how to write it out, so i will go briefy thru.
hmm...
er....
ehz....
ya... i cant think of any, no inspiration...
start from working environment ba... i have been working for nearly 3 months liao, since i am getting my 3rd pay slip beri soon. really enjoyed the times working wif the people, altough have to work after school which makes me beri tired when everyone else is going home n i have to go work. but everything went out quite well, get to know the people there more, even went out to supper every other day. sad to say so, one of our colleagues are transferring to other branches liao, which he dun wan.. n he resign on tat day. one thing that i dun like abt levis, is tat they will just transfer in n out people every month. n since our shop has just started, every has just started to get to know each other more. one or two will have to leave us, n others will come in. n who knows? maybe i will the next one transfered out... but, thats life, life is cruel, our shop didn't meet the sales target given, so every1 have to reshuffle, so to improve e sales... i just find it useless. anyway, wat position can i say, i'm a part timer, happy i work, not happy i quit. life can be tat simple.
forget abt work, abt school now. school is fun, school is relax, studying is e best... i dun think other than poly, u can study, play, work all together. if i'm happy i can just PON school n go JB wif frenz =p... but i just dun like IT, n its coming to the last semester of lecturing, nxt yr will be attachment and final yr project. n coming so far, i dun think i have benefitted anything out of it. n everyday in class, e assignment can really makes me puke... stupid n waste time, all these are just junk which i dun think can helps me when i went out to work. USEFULNESS? bullshit... i'm sort of cant go on anymore, i think i will fail like shit during the exam. n its semester 4! can i just give up now? i think working is much better than studying IT...
christmas is coming, i'm really excited, i cant explain why but it feels good when christmas is near. i wanted a white christmas, i want to celebrate my christmas when it is snowing, n that is christmas!
anway... end of my post, lots of things to say, but i guess blogging is not wat i'm good at, dunno how to type it out... wat to do? english sux... life sux...
12:54 am
here comes the once a month update of my blog, altough most have given up blogging as it is not as hot as last time, but i will still go on my blogging... once a month is enuff as once a wk may not be much to tok abt.
as for the whole month of october, i have been studying as well as working too, running between NP n heeren, but mostly i find it i am working more than studying. seems like school is just a part time course for me. i came to a point that i was wondering wat am i really studying for? after 2 wks of school, i seriously found out tat IT is really a waste of my time, some more wif 2 modules nothing but shit (sorry abt that). i dun think i will learn anything from tat 2 modules... one is project management where i dunno wat the hell is e lecturer talking abt, n e other is learning microsoft office like word, excel, ppt. we r forced to buy a $33 textbk to do exercises, totally waste of my money n time to learn MS office back from basic. no teaching required! just follow the exercise from e bk n u will passed. y am i paying 2k a semester to lecturers that sits down in class n see us do exercises. seriously i feel like tearing the book into half when i was doing it. rubbish! learn liao as if when we come out we will still rmb.
many pple been asking me y am i so chiong abt working? am i short of cash? there are many reason tat i choose to work part time. 1stly i need money to go travelling, i wanna get out of singapore as many times as possible, singapore is a boring n sickening place tat i will choose to live in, if possible, i will somewhere like mountain tops den everyday see sun rise n sun drops, peaceful n simple life.
simple life for simple man
2ndly, during this 2 months i've been searching for something, something which i can find meaningful to my life. though i have not found it yet but i'm looking for it. while searching for something, i find tat i am losing something important to me too. hardly see my family, hardly meet up wif frenz, hardly do my usual stuff... all these makes me feel very sorry for it. but thats life i guess.. times change, so do pple around you change, i hate to accept that.
i dunno whether i was making a correct choice or not, but thats life, one wrong move n you are dead, i hope things may turn out well when the nxt updates comes.
people said i have changed, can i not changed?
12:36 am
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